My New Year’s Resolution came to me the other day while making my five year old son’s lunch. I was making him a turkey and cheese sandwich per his request and before I put it in his lunch box, I decided to cut it in the shape of a heart. Since he is in Kindergarten, I know that I have limited time to do to these kinds of things before he starts getting embarrassed. I still have time left where I can show him my affection in public.
I pictured Chase’s face at lunch time when he opened up his lunch box and knew that he would feel happy and loved by that tiny gesture that took me less than 5 seconds. It was then that I decided to make it a priority in 2013 to make each of my children feel extra special at least once every day.
You see, I started this job as a stay at home mom about 5 years ago. It was new to me, and I was full of so much zest for motherhood and was excited to be able to show my little boy all of the joys and wonders of the world. The TV was hardly ever on, we played, went to jumpy places, danced, did library story times and had play dates more times then not during the week.
When my daughter Reese was born, Chase was two years old and although we slowed down a little bit, we still managed to have a full schedule of fun. I started to complain about how much harder it was to do with a toddler and a baby in tow and started feeling a little more run down. I knew that they deserved the best out of me, and continued with the fun activities.
Reese had just turned one when I discovered I was pregnant with baby number three. The news paralyzed me and has affected my role as a mother ever since. Don’t get me wrong, I still hug and kiss my kids just as much, but I become easily frustrated and have also become lazy when it comes to taking them places. The story times and play dates have slow down almost to a halt. I take a deep breath now when getting out of bed in the mornings instead of jumping up with the passion that I used to have.
In 2013 I vow to give my 2nd and 3rd children all of me….like I did for Chase when he was younger. I promise to SHOW them how special and loved they are by me. I promise to DO more, and complain less.
I will get up in the morning excited to show the younger two all of the fun and exciting opportunities we have for that day. I will go to library story times again, bounce houses, museums and I will enjoy watching them have fun….because they deserve it.
2013 is going to be a good year. It’s going to be the year of doing and I can’t wait to get started!