Each New Year’s Day, much like the rest of the world, I reflect on the previous year and think about the things that I plan on doing differently in the upcoming year. After all, January 1st is a new beginning, a fresh start, and the beginning of a new chapter that only I am in control of.
Since before I can remember, my New Years resolutions had to do with eating healthy and exercising. Every January 1st I was determined to get abs of steal and shapely toned legs. I would buy every vegetable and lentil at the grocery store and cut up fresh cucumber for my gallon of water. I would print out calendars and highlight the days that I would do certain classes at the gym. THIS was my New Years resolution and the most important goal year after year.
This year is a different story, however. As a stay at home mother to three kids under the ages of 6, I decided that my priorities on “changing” need to be less superficial. Yes, I still plan on living a healthy lifestyle because that is who I am, but it won’t be the obsession like New Years past.
I decided to look deep within myself and to see what I really needed to change, not only for me…but for my family and everyone else around me. I thought long and hard about what would be attainable and how I wanted others to view me… and this is what I came up with.
I want to gossip less. I want to be less negative. I want to DO things, instead of think about doing them. I want to give back. I want to pray. I want to love so hard that those around me are shielded from any hurt or pain because of my love. I want to play. I want to laugh and I want to learn.
I want to be the kind of person that others want to be around. I want to be my kids favorite person…and my husbands too. I want to let my guard down and let people in. I want to be honest. I want to be selfless.
I want to be less hard on myself but I want to expect more from myself as well. I want to succeed. I want to be real.
You won’t be able to bounce a quarter off of my abs in December of 2014 and I will probably still hate the back of my legs, but that’s OK with me. As long as I am continuing to grow as a wife, mother, daughter, friend, sister, etc I am headed in the right direction.